How often we hear a statement ‘just listen to yourself’? Well, if not every day then at least a few times in our lives. But how can we really understand what we feel? How can we disentangle love from desire, anger from self protection, fear from carefulness? Can we make a decision by analyzing our feelings?
I believe we all carry a wisdom and knowledge that exceeds our intellect and prior experiences. And most of us knew it when we were children, most of us were those little restless discoverers that always wanted to make things our way – we knew that we came to this Earth not with ‘empty hands’. But we forgot how to access those knowledge the only thing that left is this whispering voice deep inside and pale feelings that direct us in our every day decisions. But we gained instead is this never stopping noise in our head and always warning emotions. Which ones to listen to?
We can learn to distinguish the voice of our inner Self from the shouting of our ego. Not that I believe the ego to be the root of all evil or a servant of devil. I would rather say it is a defensive mechanism that is there to protect us from many distracting things. But it also protects us from any changes, different ideas and in many cases from growth and development. And if we were programmed by modern society to be skeptical and critical about any new ideas, especially if it is something different from a cruel and harsh world that was introduced to us as a ‘reality’, then ego will try to protect us from it. How easily people accept all the negative information and how much efforts it takes to believe in something good – it is too ‘unreal’. It is scary even to imagine what is the picture of reality then if a small good deed is being questioned but any even the most cruel act is accepted as reality. But well, this is how our ego was programmed, and the firewall it sets is quite strong. The other tool that our ego is using very often is the past experience. The good moments and events our soul accepts as normality, but all negative experiences our ego stores in its database. And every time something suspicious is happening ego is referring to that stock of the files and checking whether it is not similar case. And guess what, it can often find many similarities and warn you about that. It is almost like a reflex, just the point is that very often we can put wrong diagnose about the cause of the ‘disease’ in the first place that would lead to wrong reflex in the future. I had a funny case when I overate roasted peanuts and after that I ate a bit of blueberries. I felt really bad after those peanuts, but all my body was remembering were blueberries, so now I am absolutely fine with nuts, but have very negative feelings about innocent healthy blueberries.
So how to understand when is our inner Self is talking and when we are hearing the scared voice of ego? It is quite simple: if you have any worrying feelings about particular person or even just ask yourself “Am I terrified or just afraid?”. Just dig deep and listen, try to understand what is making you uncomfortable: the changes, the past experience or the actual energy of the person or place. Those feeling are quite different but we were not actually taught how to distinguish them. But you can feel very clearly that one comes from deep within, calm and confident the other is just the echo of the past voices, shaky and mumbling. Sometimes both of them speak together, then you don’t even need to think , you will know for sure that you need to stay away from whatever that is.
So learn to listen to yourself and than get out there, explore the world and have the best possible experiences on this Earth.
With love,
Happy
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